I'm used to these days. I've had more than I care to remember. I've had much better days but also much worse days too, so I need to remind myself of that.
My wrists seem to be in a flare up and hurt and ache so much. It feels like a constant pressure of pain. I'm having to type this in sections as it's hurting to type, but I need to get these feelings and thoughts out. I need to voice it to someone, just so I can try to get rid and get on with the rest of the day.
It's just when I have days like this.. I struggle a little. I know I should allow myself to have a wobble occasionally. I'm not a robot and i'm far from perfect. I know there are many worse off than me, but I also know that what i'm feeling is real. The pain is real. The worry is real. I am allowed to feel fed up and annoyed that a day is going by without me making the most of it. I can't do what i want to do. My house is a mess. I don't have the energy to tidy. I can't paint furniture that I want to. I can't redecorate my tiny little hallway like I want to. I can't take my dog for a proper walk. I can't go out.
That allows me to feel a bit pissed off I suppose. BUT i don't want it to get the better of me. So I just need to let it be what it is and hope that tomorrow is better. Que Sera.